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Memoirs Aren't Fairytales: A Story of Addiction Paperback – December 13, 2011
- Print length253 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherBooktrope
- Publication dateDecember 13, 2011
- Dimensions5.5 x 0.5 x 8.5 inches
- ISBN-101935961292
- ISBN-13978-1935961291
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- Publisher : Booktrope; F First Edition (December 13, 2011)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 253 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1935961292
- ISBN-13 : 978-1935961291
- Item Weight : 11.5 ounces
- Dimensions : 5.5 x 0.5 x 8.5 inches
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USA Today best-selling author Marni Mann knew she was going to be a writer since middle school. While other girls her age were daydreaming about teenage pop stars, Marni was fantasizing about penning her first novel. She crafts unique stories that weave together her love of darkness, mystery, passion, and human emotions. A New Englander at heart, she now lives with her husband in Sarasota, Florida. When she’s not nose deep in her laptop, she’s scouring for chocolate, sipping wine, traveling, boating, or devouring fabulous books.
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With gripping precision and hauntingly accurate detail, Ms. Mann describes Nicole's first descent: "The taste was an odd mix, sweet like kid vitamins and bitter like vinegar, and it burned my lungs. I felt it, slowly, at the tip of each limb and then a rush up to my head. The rush wasn't anything like coke. This, well, this was euphoric--tingles and sparks and melting--like I was being swallowed by a cloud of cotton and the sun was wrapping its rays around me like a blanket. I could feel my chin falling towards my chest, my back hunching forward."
Of course, as we all know, this feeling doesn't last. No matter how hard you try, nothing can ever replicate the euphoria of that first hit. Eventually, you wind up empty and soulless, devoid of all human emotion, a mechanism operating on one thing and one thing only; the hunger for the next taste that will make you somewhat whole again.
Nicole experiences this exact same soullessness, while getting rammed in the ass behind the alley by some fat, sweaty biker dude: "Now, heroin controlled my body. And since it had been violated, did it really have any value to me anymore? No. I could whore out all I wanted. I could screw ten guys for a hundred bucks. As long as dope was inside me, I didn't care if a man was too."
Unfortunately, this type of dejection is right on the money. I should know. As a hopelessly depraved addict myself (now with 4 years sobriety, but only by the grace of God), I can say, without hesitation, that Marni nails the depravity, down to its gritty core.
The pain is real. The hopelessness is real. The only thing unreal is Marni's ability in getting the details of it so damn accurate. How did she do it? I wondered, as I devoured page after page of frighteningly familiar debauchery. Was Marni an addict? Did she experience the same hell her junkie protagonist, Nicole, had experienced? I decided to do a little research. To my surprise, I found out that Ms. Mann wasn't an addict herself, (although she had known many in her life, including one very close who had overdosed.) But then how was she able to write the highs so well if she had never actually injected? The simple answer: research. Not only is Ms. Mann a gifted writer, she is a fierce investigative journalist.
As she explains in the FAQ section of her website ([...]), "the biggest source of information came directly from the addicts themselves. In fact, most of the addicts I interviewed were high. They were dumping the heroin onto a spoon, liquefying the powder, and shooting it into their veins while I was in their presence. Within a few seconds of pulling the needle out--because that's how long it takes to get high--my questions began. How did they feel? What did they see? What was running through their head?"
Wow. Now, that's what I call being a dedicated writer. She didn't watch some video on Youtube or pop in Trainspotting. Nope. She went right to the source; the junkies themselves. No wonder this novel is so gripping. It feels like you are right there with Nicole in that roach-infested Boston motel room shooting dope into your arm. It makes me so happy to read something so brutal and compelling, especially since it's in the same genre I love to write myself. What Marni has done is truly an inspiration. It makes me eager to start working on my next book. Well done, Ms. Mann.
This book is definitely a must read for all addicts in any stages of their addiction and/or recovery. But I don't think you have to be an addict to appreciate this story. It is written so well and with such precision, that even if you can't relate directly to Nicole's struggle, you feel vested enough in her character to keep the pages turning. And you wanna know what the best part is? Oh hell yeah...there's a sequel!
Andrew Seaward, author of Some Are Sicker Than Others
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My Rating: 4½/5 stars
My Review:
The addictive personality is a scary thing. The memoirs of an addict, a scarier thing. The author who knows how to bring both the personality and the stories together into a series of reads, brilliantly terrifying. Marni Mann’s Memoirs Aren’t Fairytales is one of the scariest, totally based on reality reads I have encountered in quite some time and is very much like reading the transcript of an episode of A & E’s Intervention.
At just nineteen year old, Nicole has survived a horrifying experience – one so awful that she should have immediately immersed herself in therapy in order to learn how to deal with what she survived. Instead, Nicole leaves college and with her best-friend, Eric leaves her home and family in Bangor, Maine for what she hopes will be a fresh start in Boston. From the moment the two arrive, they are at a disadvantage with little education, very little in the way of marketable skills and, a penchant for smoking pot. Neither Eric nor Nicole have any desire to change their ways and it doesn’t take either of them long to move beyond smoking pot and into harder drugs.
Nicole’s descent into full-blown addiction is startlingly swift and no matter how bad her life conditions become, she can’t make herself even consider seeking help. For Nicole, she has everything she needs: the drugs help her forget her horrifying past, the work she does contributes to the drugs she and Eric buy and consume and, she has her best-friend by her side to enable her behavior. The high Eric and Nicole chase is so alluring that each are willing to experiment and in no time, each is lost in heroin. For Nicole, the situation is perfect right up to the moment Eric dies from an overdose. Nicole is devastated by the loss of her best-friend but the heroin is stronger than her grief.
Over the next months (and years!) Nicole sinks further and further into her addiction and becomes the poster child for drug addiction. Nicole lies, steals, prostitutes herself, anything she has to do in order to fuel her addiction. Nicole attaches herself to whomever will supply her and debases herself in ways that are near-inconceivable. The scenes from this time in Nicole’s life are some of the read’s most graphic and horrifying. From allowing her body to be abused by strangers, by drugs, by herself to the moments when she can’t afford drugs and her body begins to detox are truly disgusting. At every turn and with every new disaster, you think Nicole can’t sink any further and yet, she finds new and improved ways to harm herself and those around her. Her rock bottom is the bottom of a chasm and when she hits, the effect reverberates through not only her life but her family’s as well.
The Bottom Line: I clearly had very little respect for sleep and my schedule the following day because I stayed up all night in order to read this book cover to cover. Nicole’s story is truly terrifying and the allure of the read is not just in the journey she takes into madness but in how raw the read is. Mann pulls no punches and lays bare precisely how ugly addiction is and how it impacts not just the user but those around him or her. Nicole’s life is her addiction and this novel is her life. I warn you, dear reader this is not a happy read but it is fascinating, well-written and, a study in addiction. It is also not the end of Nicole’s story . . . .
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Brilliant, gritty story which totally sucks the reader in. I was addicted. The main character was well established and because of the way it's written the reader almost feels as if they know her.
The reader feels so many emotions reading the book. At times I felt like I was on a rollercoaster! I'm so excited knowing there is a second part in the pipeline. Definitely recommend this book